Marijuana use began as a solution to the difficulties of life - it was like a love affair. But gradually it became more and more problematic: - Marijuana became the thing in life I needed to be able to do almost anything else. 

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In a nice video on YouTube, Tommy Rosen tells how he was caught using marijuana at an early age and how his life was strongly affected by this use.

He tells how cannabis use affected almost every aspect of his life - and about how, after a long period of use, he managed to take the step: out of the addiction.

 

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Tommy Rosen started using cannabis when he was 13 years old. He was then an anxious and angry boy, and he experienced the intoxication of smoking marijuana as a relief. It was like a love affair, he says. 

And with this experience, marijuana use also gained a central place in his life and in his history of himself.  

However, the story did not stop there. As with other addictions, it is often a kind of "love affear" that characterizes the first period of drug use. But gradually the downside of the drug use becomes increasingly clear. 

 

Used marijuana more and more often

Tommy Rosen says that, first of all, he used marijuana more and more frequently. 

- Marijuana became the thing in my life I needed to be able to do almost anything else. 

However, he emphasizes that this addiction is not directly comparable to, for example, a heroin addict who needs heroin. In such cases, the abstinences are much stronger. With Tommy, it was not a matter of strong physical absistence reactions, but rather a mental state of unrest, which resulted in a craving for marijuana.

- When I went one day without marijuana, you simply ended up meeting an irritable and uncomfortable person, Rosen says.

 

An unsuccessful attempt to quit

But at this point, he had to admit that his entire circle of friends were marijuana users, and that all aspects of his life had some connection to marijuana.

- I remember well the day I decided to stay away from cannabis for 30 days. I needed a break. I needed to get the drug out of my body.

He struggled through the first days with irritability and malaise, and began to feel a good feeling of mastery. He became more aware of school, and became more present in his life. 

But on day 22 something happened: He got the idea that "I know I want to do this for 30 days, but I do not have to do it." Thus, he just as well plunged straight into marijuana use again. 

 

- I I will never stop using marijuana

This somewhat impulsive decision turned out as a big disappointment to him. And he recognized immediately why it had been so important for him to quit for 30 days. 

He noticed the addictive power marijuana had over him. Tommy Rosen says that in his drug abuse he had also been into some other substances. 

He ended up wanting to seek treatment, but in advance he told one of his friends: 

- I'm going to quit cocaine. I'm going to quit heroin. But no treatment center in the world could make me quit marijuana.

So strong was the power that marijuana had in his life.

 

Intoxication was an escape from reality

During the next few months during treatment, he acknowledged that his whole life had been about trying not to relate to his own feelings. It was all about trying to force good feelings that he previously had experienced at some point in life, or to avoid the bad feelings that he also had experienced. 

- In all these years with marijuana use, I never learned how to deal with difficult emotions, Rosen says.

- It was like sweeping everything under the rug and expecting it to be gone.

He tells about what happened when he became drug-free. 

- All the difficult things that I had shut down came back. The marijuana had not healed me. It had simply kept me at a distance from the problems I had, which I needed to solve at some point.

 

Finally free

When he became drug-free, he experienced a new freedom, and a new opportunity to get better in life. 

- Only now was it possible to deal with the vulnerabilities and difficulties that I had initially used marijuana to escape from, says Tommy Rosen.

He admits that it would have been much better if he had managed to quit the drug earlier in life, and to find other ways to find peace.

Rosen also reflects in the video on how the whole legalization debate around cannabis affects young people, and he believes that this debate largely seems confusing. 

 

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